I've been having a string of hopeless-mommy-moments.
I was in the Orchard area today with some time on my hands. So i decided to visit Kino to get some books for the boys. I knew where the kids book area was, but when i got there, i found myself just walking around and around and along the aisles.
Every aisle looked like this...
I think the usual me, before mommyhood, sleepless nights and crazy work schedules, would have loved to plonk myself down by the aisle, pick out one colourful spine after the other and thumb through the pages, enjoying the thick card-boardy pages, that only kiddy books have!
But sleep-deprived, stressed out mommy me? It was all tooo much! Like there must have been a gazillion books. How was I supposed to choose?
It's real easy when it comes to adult books right? For me, I think- Indian author, family drama, set in rural areas, or set in the past (I don't quite like stories in present day metropolitan cities), some mother-daughter-in-law tension is great, inter-caste romance is a bonus, some nomination for some award is good- and it's a WIN for me!
I could have just grabbed any book, but at like an average of $15 a pop, I wasn't about to waste my money. So I walked out defeated and empty handed.
It wasn't all bad. I had to make a trip to NTUC on my way home. Ridden with guilt, I jumped at the opportunity to get something, ANYTHING, when I saw a discount bin of books in the middle of NTUC. I picked this book out for $6.
Not quite a great whimsical story I was looking out for, when I headed to Kino, but it served to sooth my own guilt of being such a hopeless Mom.